JP 2017 Update - Day 10
I keep saying "Wow!" at each email, so I think at this point it is safe to just assume I am going to say "WOW!" to start each email.
Well, I left Friday morning to go back to my hotel, packed up, checked out at 12 and headed out for Richmond by 12:15. After 5 hours in standstill traffic, almost having my bladder explode, and me nearly going insane, I made it to St. Marks UMC where our Richmond week will be. I got there and Coworker David was also pulling in, he had already officially started his job as the gopher. He was picking up some air mattresses for those who hadn't brought one. I quickly ran to the bathroom and unloaded my things. Then we set off for dinner with the other staffers. We came back from dinner, Todd, Coworker David, and I had a little pow-wow and Todd checked in with both of us. For some reason, I got it in my head that a stain and a seal are the same things, so I have to go back through my clients and tell them we only do sealing.
We met this week's staff and then went our separate ways. Coworker David and I have our own schedule, so while staff was in a meeting, we got to finish up paperwork and then go wind down.
I am tired and I question whether or not I am really supposed to do this. I jacked up my car, I am only 19, there is really so many better people who couple probably be doing this job, I didn't know the difference between a stain and a seal, I miss my family, all of that. With my anxiety, there gets to a point where I procrastinate up until the last minute and then I just have to do whatever I didn't want to do, there is no more time to back down. That is the mentality I came in with. I know God is calling me to this ministry, I know He has my plan, I know he knows what He is doing, He would never harm me in any way. Jeremiah 33:3 says, "Call unto me and I will show you great and wonderful things of which you do not know." I am really trying to call unto my Father and be unafraid in my blindness of a future. He will reveal to me what my future holds when it is time. In the mean time, I am working as hard as I can to further His kingdom while working to Jeremiah Project. I miss you all and just want to curl up in a ball while each and everyone of you hug me!
Thank you for the love, support, and prayers! I love you all.